Archive for July, 2010

July 31, 2010

sleepy boy.

I really can’t complain when Saturday nights are spent like this, having my main man Dayton fall asleep in my lap watching America’s Most Wanted, instead of going out.

Seriously, I love babysitting.

July 30, 2010

oh, friday, i missed you.

This pretty much sums up what my week has been about. Sunshine and water. I have managed to get a lot done, but I have done a lot of relaxing and reading outside too.

The days seem to drag on and fly by at the same time. Don’t ask me how. I’m just here for the ride.

Have a good weekend!

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July 29, 2010

the August break.

I am just all about these little challenges, even though I don’t know if I can keep up with them. heh.

Anyway, in August, I am in on the August break along with Susannah Conway (of the Unravelling fame) and a flock of others.

A picture a day to capture summer (I’m going to aim for 5 days a week though). This should be fun!

July 28, 2010

oh, love, you are silly.

5 reasons to fall in love:
1. It would be nice to have someone always on my team.
2. Finally can put that left ring finger to good use.
3. Free back rubs anytime I want.
4. Love leads to babies. Eventually.
5. Total complete happiness.

5 reasons to stop myself:
1. He
2. could
3. break
4. my
5. heart.

July 27, 2010

i can hardly stand it.

I thought it would be
less distracting alone
only me and the wind
but I only fooled myself.

Nothing is ever more distracting
than pure happiness
in the heart.

July 26, 2010

Polaroid cards.

I have had this idea for quite a while but just never got around to actually getting everything together and doing it. It must be the procrastination in me, telling me that I can do it tomorrow.

I bought some Polaroid 600 film on Ebay a few months ago, and when I got it and shot the first picture, it came out with AXE across the bottom. Now I like my man to have some AXE and smell good, but to have it advertised at the bottom of my Polaroid? Not so much.

I decided to use the rest of the film as pieces for cards. So I took some photos of a “Love” painting I did. The colors and the heart worked pretty well for this. I cut the words off the bottom and sewed them onto folded cream cards with shiny silver thread and got matching cream envelopes. I love the way they turned out.

I think I am going to go to the carousel in the next week or so to see what kinds of shots would work for this. The colors should be pretty if nothing else. :)

But for now, the heart Polaroid cards are in the shop.

July 24, 2010

30 Day Challenge: Day 11

I skipped a few days, so bear with me on this.

30CD Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

My smile. I tend to smile a lot, and it’s probably because I like to smile. I think there is something very inviting about people who look and seem happy. It makes others want to me around them so I think that’s why people sometimes gravitate to me (even when I don’t want them to, haha).

Plus a smile makes you feel better. And who doesn’t want that??

July 23, 2010

oh, that voice.

Seriously, she could put me to sleep with her voice.

Olivia Broadfield–Don’t Cry

July 22, 2010


+ My birthday is in 13 days.

+ I am brushing up on Excel stuff for the next few weeks because there’s a lot of it in my job description.

+ Fudge bars = love.

+ I am in need of a very good time at a country bar. I don’t know why–I’m just in the mood for that type of fun.

+ This week has been one of the best weeks I’ve had in quite a long time. I might be jinxing myself, but there have been no bumps….yet.

+ I know I just changed my blog banner and added matching buttons along the side (over there <====), but I'm going to change them again in the next few weeks. I just need something new.

+ It's going to be a busy day, but hopefully I'll get to my Polaroid cards I want to make.

+ I am inviting the rain that the weatherman says we'll be getting. I want a great big, bad ass storm. Lightning and all.

+ I download Swype for my EVO, and it's a pretty awesome app. It will take some getting used to though.

+ I will never understand guys. And they'll probably never understand women. We might as well give up on it!

July 21, 2010

25 things I’ll never do.

1. skydive
2. drugs
3. change myself for a man
4. hurt someone purposely
5. swim in the ocean
6. stay with a cheater
7. give up photography
8. give up poetry
9. not love the sunshine
10. settle
11. have no goals
12. want to own a pet bird
13. enjoy mud
14. find stationery boring
15. stop loving football
16. go to jail
17. be unaddicted to Chapstick
18. flash anybody (in public anyway, haha)
19. eat an oyster
20. not love the mountains
21. have to change a tire
22. tattoo a man’s name on me
23. date a Wildcat fan
24. love snow
25. be mean to my (future) kids

July 20, 2010

A miracle has happened. :)

I have a job.

No, seriously, I do! Well, it’s a temp job at Innovia Films while a girl, Mandy, is on maternity leave, but it’s still a job.

My oldest brother and sister both work there (yay for connections!), and I have met quite a few people that also work there over the past few years through the two of them. I’m going in a little bit comfortable already.

I won’t be starting until the end August so I can start training and then Mandy will go on her maternity leave at the end of October or sometime in November. Whenever the baby decides I suppose.

I’m excited to have something to do, even if it’s for a few weeks, but dreading the waking-up-at-the-crack-of-dawn-to-be-at-work-by-7:30 part.

July 19, 2010

24. It’s almost over.

In just a few weeks, I’ll be turning 25, and I’ll have to make a new goal minibook. I have an idea already for what I want to do with it (for one, I won’t use that pink fabric paint to try to outline the numbers, that’s for sure), but I am forcing myself to wait to get it together. I’m hanging onto 24 for as long as I can.

This book was really fun to keep up with. I found the idea via Elise (of course), and it made me feel motivated to accomplish the things I want because they were right there on the page staring at me. I won’t list all of them since some of them are (to me) personal, but in the last year, I have been able to check off most of the 24 things I have listed. For instance, I learned a new skill (crochet), ate healthier, and paid off all my debt (although I acquired a new credit card charge a few days ago when I bought the EVO). Other goals I had (like experiencing every bar at Power & Light district in KC) have changed. Going out and drinking aren’t things that really interest me anymore so that goal is irrelevant to me now.

Years from now, I look forward to looking through this book, at the goals and pictures, and reexamining how life has changed (or not changed).

24 sure has been one of the calmer years of my life, and I’m not complaining.

July 18, 2010

silent sunday.

July 17, 2010

30 Day Challenge: Day 9

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

+ Lindley. We have known each other since we were 5 years old. My first real friend. We used to be really close, and over the past few years, we see less of each other and talk less too. I know that that is what happens when you get older. People change and drift apart. I think that is really the only way to explain how we are right now. I still love him and think he is a good person and good friend. Our lives have just taken somewhat different paths, and we have found other friends that fit better and closer. When we do see each other when our mutual group of friends gets together, we always laugh and catch up.

This is at our winter formal during our senior year of high school. We had such fun that night.

July 16, 2010

a little venom in your birthday cake.

the ease of your wickedness
shone down like a summer sun
through thick green branches
and bubbled my skin just the same.

I must have been a horrible person
to deserve this, surely.

aloe vera and a little love
will heal my tender scorches–
but where will you go
for such a vile soul?

straight to Hell–
and I hope the devil is your doctor.

July 15, 2010

breathe in, and out.

Her laugh broke the silence
and lit up the room.

He noticed,

and it took all night
(and a few drinks)
to muster up the nerve
to ask for her name
(and her number).

He was handsome
in a peculiar way
and quite the gentleman.

She noticed,

and there it started.
Slight adoration
and certain love.

July 15, 2010

30 Day Challenge: Day 8

Day 8: Someone who has made my life hell or treated me like shit.

+ Oh my goodness, shall I start a list?? hehe, just kidding. I don’t think I have anyone to list here under such a category. There have been people would made/make life rough, but never hell. I am thankful as long as that is true.

July 14, 2010

30 Day Challenge: Day 7

Day 7: Someone who has made my life worth living.

+ I would currently say anyone in my family because I can’t imagine life without any single one of them, but if I had to narrow it down to one person at a specific time in my life, I guess it would have to be Caleb. When I was injured, his birth was the brightest light in my future and the only real thing I looked forward to. He has always been a special little dude to me since, and I am happy to say that many more bright things have shown themselves.

July 13, 2010

A little EVO review.

**Now, let me be clear–I’ve never written a review before, so this won’t be perfect. It’s just a look at the EVO from my pov.

I’ve had my EVO for a little over 2 weeks now, and I have to say I am so glad that I decided to splurge on it.

The screen size is amazing. It’s usually the first thing that people notice when I show it to them (especially my sister and her boyfriend who are dedicated iPhone users). It’s big, colorful, and high-quality.

The camera is better than the camera on my Blackberry was. Higher quality and more features. There are apps that you can download that make it even more versatile too. My favorite camera app is FxCamera, which seems less complicated than the Vignette app after they updated it.

As a quadriplegic, the touchscreen is much easier for just about everything. Typing, navigating, scrolling. It’s just easier for my fingers when there is as little effort and pressure needed.

Although the battery life is only about half of what my Blackberry was, it’s not as much of a deal breaker for me as it apparently has been for some others. I downloaded the Advanced Task Killer, which shuts down the apps that I am not using at the moment, and it saves the battery life. I have a charger for the car, and I don’t spend an insane amount of time on my phone either. I guess the battery life just depends what you’re using the EVO for.

Favorite applications:
Advanced Task Killer
Facebook (of course)
Peep (HTC’s Twitter app)
Evernote (for taking notes/thoughts/snippets of poems)
Jewels (this game is so addictive)
Qik (video streaming app)
Wordpress (Blog posting made easy from a handheld!)

I know the hype about iPhone and how everyone says it is the best. Well, I don’t have one, only an iPod Touch, which as far as I know is the same thing with the phone, and I don’t think I would trade my EVO for one. That’s saying a lot considering I am a total Apple lover otherwise. My EVO just feels sturdier. Love it!

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July 13, 2010

30 Day Challenge: Day 6

Day 6: Something I hope I never have to do.

+ I hope I never, ever, ever, EVER have to have another hospital stay. Those 4 months in Colorado at Craig Hospital were necessary of course, but they were the longest, most grueling 4 months of my life. I loved the people (except one very pushy nurse who tried to scare me any chance she could), hated everything else. I never want to sleep in another one of those awful plasticy beds. I never want to be forced to eat another hospital green bean or weird mashed potatoes. Most of all, I never want to have to inhale that stale antiseptic air for another night of my life. (Ew, the thought even makes me a bit nauseous.)

July 12, 2010

30 Day Challenge: Day 5

Day 5: Something I hope to do in my life.

+ I hope to live somewhere far away from Kansas, even if for just a short time. I have always wanted to “get out” of here, and I have always loved big cities. Denver or Indianapolis sound like reasonable places to go, maybe Houston? I don’t know, but it will happen one of these days.

July 12, 2010

dead end.

I’ve had a summery case of writer’s block. Maybe it could be because everything has been going so well lately. I seem to spill things onto paper when I am sad or trying to understand something. That hasn’t been the situation the past few weeks. I have been busy and happy and enjoying the company of family from far away.

Believe me, I am not really complaining, just examining why I am so out of words.

Today I am going to attempt to take a date with my camera and find some inspiration.

July 11, 2010

30 Day Challenge: Day 4

Day 4: Something I have to forgive someone else for.

+ I need to completely forgive Carmen for not being as supportive as I wish she would have been after our wreck. It’s been a long time, and while I have forgiven her a little bit (I think), I still have a pang of resentment there. We aren’t friends anymore. We don’t see each other, and I doubt very much that anything about our current “friendship” status will change in the future. The healthy thing is just to forgive her completely and let it go.

July 11, 2010

silent sunday.

July 10, 2010

so summer.

This video just makes me crave heat and humidity and fun and tans. Oh, I love summer.