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April 20, 2013

life around here.

IMG_5813aLife around here has been non-stop stress for the past two weeks. Between finding out about Dad’s cancer and work, I’m finishing up the little things for the wedding that is happening in ONE WEEK. I cannot believe it is here already. The jars have been tied with lace ribbon, and I finally picked out a pretty pale pink nail polish. The little details.

Dad is doing a little better. He started radiation on Thursday and is handling it well. No nausea (knock on wood) and no headaches. He has a better appetite, and we are pretty sure we have his pain under control. It’s still up in the air as to how things will go when he gets further into the radiation and then chemo, but we are hopeful that things will stay calm and there will be no setbacks.

If things get quiet around here for a while, don’t be alarmed. Greg will probably be going to Indianapolis sometime after our wedding for work (hail!) so I am going to soak up as many minutes with him as I can. I will be back eventually.

Love.

April 13, 2013

absent.

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This is a tough post to write, a tough post to back over everything that has happened in the last week and put it into writing. But here it is.

My dad was diagnosed last Friday with Stage 4 Small Cell Lung Cancer. He has been getting sick for a few weeks, slowly getting weaker and more tired, but we all thought that he had developed pneumonia as a result of a long winter and his emphysema. He and my mom called the ambulance Thursday morning, and after x-rays, it was determined that yes, he did have pneumonia. But there were also shadows in his lung that were concerning to the doctor.

I had myself convinced that it was scar tissue, nothing more than something to do with his emphysema and the things that come with it. After a multitude of blood tests, scans, and x-rays, I was wrong.

The cancer is very aggressive and has spread to his liver, brain, and lymph nodes. One round of chemo was given on Wednesday, and he will start radiation on Tuesday. After two weeks, we will figure out what the plan is. More chemo or not. I have hope that this is going to work, and while it isn’t going to take the cancer away, it will slow its growth and allow us more time with him. Hope.

He is home with us right now (we brought him home Friday), and he are working to keep his pain medicines on schedules and breathing treatments coming when he feels short of breath.

In two weeks, I will be getting married to the love of my life, and my dad will be at home watching via Facetime. It’s not the ideal situation, one that will probably make me bawl my eyes out more than once on our wedding day, but it is what he wants to do. He wants to see me get married but not worry about people around getting him anxious or upset. It will work.

“Hope. It is the only thing stronger than fear.”

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November 5, 2008

Pushing ahead.

They say that when it rains, it pours. Well, if that’s the case, Kansas is a swampland, and I am drowning. Just when you think things can’t possibly get any worse, they do. Let’s recap the madness as of late:

Aunt Nancy has cancer. Not just any cancer, but a hormonal cancer that has spread itself through her entire body (lung, liver, ovaries, breast, stomach) and is slowly taking her energy away. She went yesterday for some test to try to determine where it started, and hopefully we’ll know something by tonight. I just can’t believe it. I am trying to have every fiber of me hoping that things go fine and somehow she can beat it, but there is a part of me that is preparing myself for a death and the grieving of my mother.

I wrecked the van. Yea, I know. An old guy cut me off, and I had nowhere to go except into the back of him. It’s so frustrating because I hate staying at home and feeling dependent on someone else to get where I need to go. I’m just waiting on the insurance company to know what my next move will be.

Grandma fell and broke her hip. We just saw her on Sunday, and the next day she was laid up in the hospital. Everyone has been here with her since her surgery yesterday, which is comforting. I just hope she can bounce back quickly and steadily.

On the good side, Obama was elected. I just knew he would, but like everything else, I held that bit of pessimistic self preparing myself for 4 years of McCain. I admit to not being a wholly political person, but this election has brought so many feelings and interests up that I didn’t even know I had. I actually argued with people over why he was worthy of the highest office in the land. And I cried when he was giving his acceptance speech. We are ready for something different, and I am just hoping he truly is the one who is going to bring that about.