Posts tagged ‘growing up’

March 15, 2009

making the best of this.

I smell like stale cigarette smoke, and it is disgusting.

I had fun last night, seeing old friends, laughing, having a beer. But mostly I was bored. Going out and being stupid just is not appealing to me anymore. The more that I stay home on the weekends, or hangout and do something fun and relaxing rather than going to the bar, spending ridiculous amounts of money, the more that I like being a sober, responsible kind of person. Not only have I saved a load of money, I just feel better about where I am and where I am headed.

Oh, I think this means I am growing up.

Guess what I am doing during Spring Break? Working. Yep, that’s right. Working. While everyone else is liquored up on Tuesday at the bars celebrating St. Patty’s Day, I am going to be tucked up in my office working on customer surveys and annual report content and planning out skits to promote youth summer reading programs. And I am completely okay with that. Maybe I’ll miss a break, but I really don’t mind doing something worthwhile all week instead of being on a weeklong drunk like most of my college friends will be.

Since I started working, it has changed the way that I look at partying I guess. Diana also said something to me that was a turnaround point also. She said “I always look at internships and volunteer experience before I even look at job experience. It shows me that this person is dedicated to something other than themselves.” It seems so right. I want to make sure that it’s apparent that I want to be there, to be the first person they want to hire full-time when a position opens up, and if I have to spend my break working to prove that, then so be it. Plus the annual report stuff really needs to be finished and be ready for placement when the audit is done. I want Gina, the executive director, to know I was on the ball on it.

The countdown is officially on–if you haven’t noticed–to graduation, and the closer it gets, the more important it is to make a good impression on everyone I meet who could be a good networking contact. I’ve made so many in the past few months, and I’m counting on utilizing those when I am looking for a job, in case a position doesn’t open up in time at TSCPL. Before I was just going one day, one thing at a time, but now I am planning further ahead and looking forward to what comes in the long run.

Growing up might not be so bad after all.

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January 25, 2009

sprouting.

I am always so critical of myself, and for the most part I know that I shouldn’t be. I am good at what I do, right? I should have more confidence in it. I’ve been working really hard on that and have been succeeding, especially since I took this TSCPL internship and am proving myself in a real position of a fast-paced environment. It’s done so much for my small insecurities as well as turning some of the large insecurities into small ones. (It’s just my luck that I would get this internship when the great book debacle is happening, eh? But that makes the PR jobs even more exciting!)

One aspect that has greatly improved is my photography. The above picture was featured on today’s “The Daily Click” on the Shutter Sisters website, which I credit for giving me many instances of inspiration over the past year and teaching me more about photography than I ever imagined a website could. I have always been shy about taking my camera out in public and snapping too many pictures, but slowly I am coming out of that shell. People (usually) are flattered when you want to photograph them, as long as they know about it. Being sneaky is what freaks them out, I have found.

This experience has made me feel that I have matured more in the past month than I have over my entire college career. There is something that makes being dressed up and wearing an official TSCPL badge that feels very important and sophisticated.

And I like that.

(Sorry for all the talk of my internship/job, but it’s still the excitement in my life right now.)