Posts tagged ‘internship’

March 15, 2009

making the best of this.

I smell like stale cigarette smoke, and it is disgusting.

I had fun last night, seeing old friends, laughing, having a beer. But mostly I was bored. Going out and being stupid just is not appealing to me anymore. The more that I stay home on the weekends, or hangout and do something fun and relaxing rather than going to the bar, spending ridiculous amounts of money, the more that I like being a sober, responsible kind of person. Not only have I saved a load of money, I just feel better about where I am and where I am headed.

Oh, I think this means I am growing up.

Guess what I am doing during Spring Break? Working. Yep, that’s right. Working. While everyone else is liquored up on Tuesday at the bars celebrating St. Patty’s Day, I am going to be tucked up in my office working on customer surveys and annual report content and planning out skits to promote youth summer reading programs. And I am completely okay with that. Maybe I’ll miss a break, but I really don’t mind doing something worthwhile all week instead of being on a weeklong drunk like most of my college friends will be.

Since I started working, it has changed the way that I look at partying I guess. Diana also said something to me that was a turnaround point also. She said “I always look at internships and volunteer experience before I even look at job experience. It shows me that this person is dedicated to something other than themselves.” It seems so right. I want to make sure that it’s apparent that I want to be there, to be the first person they want to hire full-time when a position opens up, and if I have to spend my break working to prove that, then so be it. Plus the annual report stuff really needs to be finished and be ready for placement when the audit is done. I want Gina, the executive director, to know I was on the ball on it.

The countdown is officially on–if you haven’t noticed–to graduation, and the closer it gets, the more important it is to make a good impression on everyone I meet who could be a good networking contact. I’ve made so many in the past few months, and I’m counting on utilizing those when I am looking for a job, in case a position doesn’t open up in time at TSCPL. Before I was just going one day, one thing at a time, but now I am planning further ahead and looking forward to what comes in the long run.

Growing up might not be so bad after all.

January 25, 2009

sprouting.

I am always so critical of myself, and for the most part I know that I shouldn’t be. I am good at what I do, right? I should have more confidence in it. I’ve been working really hard on that and have been succeeding, especially since I took this TSCPL internship and am proving myself in a real position of a fast-paced environment. It’s done so much for my small insecurities as well as turning some of the large insecurities into small ones. (It’s just my luck that I would get this internship when the great book debacle is happening, eh? But that makes the PR jobs even more exciting!)

One aspect that has greatly improved is my photography. The above picture was featured on today’s “The Daily Click” on the Shutter Sisters website, which I credit for giving me many instances of inspiration over the past year and teaching me more about photography than I ever imagined a website could. I have always been shy about taking my camera out in public and snapping too many pictures, but slowly I am coming out of that shell. People (usually) are flattered when you want to photograph them, as long as they know about it. Being sneaky is what freaks them out, I have found.

This experience has made me feel that I have matured more in the past month than I have over my entire college career. There is something that makes being dressed up and wearing an official TSCPL badge that feels very important and sophisticated.

And I like that.

(Sorry for all the talk of my internship/job, but it’s still the excitement in my life right now.)

January 7, 2009

Found it.

So I’m exhausted.

Waking up at 6 a.m. and having to be at work by 8 a.m. severely sucks.  Just take my word for it.

But if your job is as great as mine is (technically it’s an internship, I know.  But job is easier to type and say) then it’s not too big of a problem.  I went in at 8 yesterday morning, expecting an orientation and “shadowing” day.  That’s not what happened.  By 9:15 a.m., I had a project thrown to me, to take total design/content control over.  I seriously had to swallow a lump in my throat because I was so nervous.  I think the fear of messing it up on the first day was overwhelming at first, but after a bit I figured out just what I was going to do with my booklet and I eased up.

My cubicle is so cute.  I know, I am a huge nerd, but that’s fine with me.  Diana and I went to central supply and toted all kinds of goodies up for me to use.  I never knew office supplies could be so fun.  Plus I have my own badge, TSCPL email, voicemail, and soon a brand-new G5 Mac to use.

I took some pictures today, but they all turned out really blurry because I was trying to be quiet so I was taking pictures without a flash (4 other people are working  in my area).  So maybe I’ll try again tomorrow or next Tuesday.

For now, I am going to bed.  Lots to do tomorrow too.  I am going to fill out the application for a degree at school.  Yay.  Yearbook stories are also waiting.

January 5, 2009

jump!

Tomorrow is the big day. The first day of real work at the library.

I am nervous and scared and completely overflowing with excitement. I hope everything goes as well as I want it to.

November 20, 2008

fresh.

I haven’t had time to write, or even think for that matter.

Life is good.

I officially set up the internship details with Diana and Kari today. I couldn’t be more excited about this experience if I tried. The things I’ll be doing are exactly what I want: writing, editing, designing, and from what I gathered today, lots of laughing. Diana, my supervisor, is so awesome and completely laid-back about everything. She made me check out every bathroom to make sure each was accessible. She said if even one wasn’t, she would make them remodel it before I start in a few weeks. I mean, she’s that cool. I HAVE A CUBICLE! ha, I have never been excited about something like that. And it has a door so it’s like a tiny office. My tiny office.

I am ready to do more than just writing, and this opportunity is going to allow me to expand everything I have been taught and put it to use in the real world.

Finally, things are falling into place.

October 12, 2008

upward

After a few days in a small, whiney slump, I am back.  I don’t enjoy moments of being pessimistic and seemingly depressed, and it makes me angry that I even get like that.  But then I think I am allowed some time to feel that way also, even if I scold myself for using any minute of the day on such worthless emotions.  So here is to the end of that!

This coming week is going to be a big one.  I am finally sending in the application to the library for the vacant intern position.  I really wish I could express how much I want this internship.  It’s practically perfect.  I was a little bit disappointed though when I read somewhere toward the end of the job description something about needing to climb stairs.  Well, obviously that isn’t an option for me because of my wheelchair, but I heard Dr. Barb’s voice in my head.  I could remember her distinctly saying “Job descriptions are describing what the absolute perfect person would be, not necessarily what they are expecting to hire.”  So I am going to apply anyway.  I have almost all of the other qualifications they are looking for, so I am confident that the fact that I cannot walk, or use stairs, will be something they are able to overlook.

I am itching to take my camera out and have some shooting time, but I have so much to do! I may just have to be patient until all the trees turn thoses gorgeous colors.

September 6, 2008

finally going right.

This week was a hectic one, with yearbook deadlines and such. Plus I wasn’t feeling the greatest.

But somehow I managed to get everything done (and on time!), plus schedule time to paint and write and go shooting. I don’t know how it has been working out this way, how with more classes and commitments than any other semester, I have time for myself that I never had before. It doesn’t make any sense, except for the fact that I have cut out procrastinating. For the most part anyway; I did spent this evening painting/collaging rather than doing homework that is waiting. But that’s okay. It’s the weekend, and I needed a break.

I always heard that art can relieve stress. I knew writing did because that way my outlet, but since I have been been painting, I am a believer. I will be the first to admit that I suck at painting. I couldn’t paint anything recognizable even if I really tried, but I am learning that creating doesn’t necessarily have to be pretty. It doesn’t have to be anything. I just enjoy doing it. I’ll probably throw half of it away, but it’s fun and relaxing. Maybe I’ll take a pic of the stupid little collage I am making, just so you guys and girls can see.

I may have finally found an internship that I can enjoy! It’s at the public library in the PR department and is pretty much everything I want. Books, PR, non-profit, kids, intelligent people. When I saw the application, I literally sighed a huge sigh because it just felt so right. I am going to ask Regina to help me complete all the forms and such. I normally would figure it all out on my own, but I want to make sure that I have a really good chance of clinching it. I really want it. I won’t know until December probably, but I am just going to hope.

Missing my writing? Well, me too. I need to spend some time being creative with words, but the focus is elsewhere right now. I need to pull it back apparently.