Posts tagged ‘work’

January 11, 2013


We survived the audit. Survived and did better than expected (in my mind anyway). This past year was full of changes and additions to my job. I took on tracking energy consumption. When the Safety Manager was fired, I took over a good chunk of safety tracking, and it all slowed me down on quality issues. So I was nervous that I might have missed something really important along the way.

But he didn’t find it, if I did.

I can breathe again. (And get cracking on this wedding.)

So this weekend is about taking it easy and hanging with my boy, who I must say is very supportive when he knows I am stressed. Another reason to love him to bits.

May 9, 2012


Finally, I am getting around to this.

Mandy and I left Thursday morning and came home on Friday afternoon/evening. It went pretty smoothly considering it was my first time flying. Except for the guy who sat next to us on the plane. I don’t know what was wrong with him, but he had some sort of seizure early into out flight Thursday. Scariest thing I have ever seen. He seized then just went limp, and I’m pretty sure he wasn’t breathing for about 10 seconds. Then he just woke up, like nothing had happened. Scary, scary, scary.

We did an audit that afternoon, and Sarah and some of the girls from the office took us out to dinner at Atkin’s Park Tavern. Soooo good. I had my first fried green tomato, and I could have eaten about 12 more. We laughed and told stories and made good friends with people who were before, just coworkers.

Friday was fast. We worked clear up until the time that the transportation van came to take us back to the airport.

It was a quick trip, but next time our boss has agreed to let us go for an extra night. Mostly because we were exhausted, and we want to see the aquarium. Sometimes he does spoil us.

March 23, 2012

thinking about…

+ the little things. Whoever first said that they are all that matters was a wise one.

+ forgiveness. There is a point where hating someone only turns into a double-edged sword and eventually only hurts the one who hates. There is no harm in forgiveness. It doesn’t mean you have to be around that person or like them or be friends with them. It just means that you can go about your day without feeling immense fire inside if you simply see their name. There is no harm in forgiveness.

+ work. I realize I’ve let it bring me down and frustrate me beyond what I should have.

+ my need to breathe. I’m thinking of taking a ME day when the weather stays decent. My camera, my journal, and my thoughts.

+ my blog. I mean, do I really ever say anything new? It feels like I am going in circles in thought and have nothing intriguing to say anymore. I need to find some inspiration. Something, somewhere.

November 22, 2011

such a productive day at work.

+ doodling
+ daydreaming
+ laughing and telling stories
+ planning pot luck tomorrow
+ procrastinating

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November 18, 2011

get it, get it.

It was a good week at work, meaning that I got tons of stuff done. Stuff that I didn’t want to do, but needed done anyway. MSDS organization, ISO documents updated, filed, spreadsheeted, and printed. Safety reports sent. Office CLEANED out. I had more energy in the past 2 days than I have in the past month, and I wasn’t going to waste it. Going back Monday won’t be so bad since my to-do list has been cut in half.

Now let’s hope that this continues so the let’s-do-this motivation can trickle into my house project. It might be a long shot, but I’ll dream in the meantime.

August 12, 2011

ah, the week at work.

Paperwork, scribbles, ordering office supplies, safety videos, & exhaustion.

July 6, 2011

break time.

Remember me saying that things were going to be busy? Well, I underestimated the busy-ness by about 10 times.

Besides the family reunion, work has been go-go-go for the past week or so. A manager secured a new job with another company so some of her responsibilities have come to me. I’m not complaining. It is good job security and a little bit of a raise, but I’m just exhausted. 3 days of training is not quite enough to be confident, and since it’s the first of the month, all the reports are due. With some stress (and a million questions to other managers), I finished them up and sent them off to the HQ in England.

Hey, maybe if they’re all good, I’ll still have a job tomorrow!

Even with everything going on, I’m trying to keep up here. I’ll apologize now, in case that plan doesn’t work out!

Hope everyone is having a fantastic summer!

June 7, 2011

pretty nice nonsense.

At work, we have weird conversations sometimes.  Deep conversations.  About things that I don’t talk about to other people, really, like my feelings (eek, ha) and direction in life and dreams and I want. Stuff that normally I keep to myself, or write here.

(I’m starting to think we breathe in too many chemicals or something. Ha.)

But these conversations always makes me think.

One thing we’ve spent quite a bit of time talking about is, of course, love. And marriage. And whether it’s all even worth it.  Mandy says yes.  She is the one who lives with her heart wide open, giving chances where Phil and I probably wouldn’t. She is the one who insists that if you don’t leave yourself somewhat vulnerable to love, you’ll miss out on something great when it comes along.

Phil says no way.  Leave your heart open and, bam, someone is going to crush you.  If you are single, you can do what you want and have fun doing it. So what, it’s a little lonely sometimes? At least you aren’t heartbroken, right?

I suppose I am in the middle.  I see both sides and sort of live in both sides too.  I’m probably the most guarded, most loving person you’ve ever met.  Confusing, I know, but so true.  If I find someone that I love, I am in wholeheartedly.  But getting there is the hard part.

I like talking about philosophies and listening to them debate too. They make me see things in ways that I hadn’t thought about before.  Not just love, life and hate and being vengeful and forgiving and everything. They make me stop and think.

I think they’re becoming my favorite part of my job.

May 23, 2011

my day went something like this.

+ wake up
+ be grumpy
+ get ready/go to work
+ catch-up with sister
+ work my tail off til my late lunch
+ plan tomorrow’s blog
+ finish voiceover for our wrap and pack training video
+ relief about video being done
+ run around delivering work to people
+ come home
+ dinner
+ read
+ blog (now!)
+ sleep (next!)

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April 8, 2011

busy busy.

Forgive me if I am a bit scarce around here, or if I post more pictures than words.

The days of the week seem to go by so slowly at work, and so fast as soon as I leave the Innovia parking lot. I dislike that part of my day. The fast.

I have managed to make my way through my Google Reader every night, and even a few pages of The Book Thief. I’m almost done, and I plan on re-reading Water with Elephants before the movie is released in a few weeks. It’s definitely a book worth reading again.

A wink or two of sleep in between sounds good too.

March 29, 2011


I don’t know if it is the allergies and this headache, or my hormones and PMS anger, but today was just all-around awful.

I was at work holding back the tears, thinking that I can’t take this job anymore. The crazy busy followed by utter boredom. The stupid jokes every single day. The same conversations. The jolly smiles when I really want to scream and pull my hair out. Maybe that’s a bit dramatic, but at the time, it was very real. I was thisclose to quitting my job and being free to be me again. But I didn’t. I do, however, think I’m going to start looking for something different.

This current job pays well, no doubt, but it’s sucking the fun side of me right down to the last drop. I don’t want a job that makes me miserable.

But for tonight, bed. me. early.

March 5, 2011

hello, weight gain.

I wrote once about wanting to gain some weight. Well, when Mandy came back from maternity leave, we started our little “weight chasers” group at work. There are about 6 of us, and I’m the only one trying to gain. ha.

So far we’re doing well. I’m up 7 pounds from where I was in August! I didn’t quite realize how hard it was going to be to gain weight without gorging myself full of horrible fatty foods. I want to still be healthy when I reach a good weight, instead of having my veins full of crap. The thought of that sort of turns my stomach.

It’s an ongoing process, just like weight loss. The only thing that is good about weight gain instead of loss is that I can eat when I am hungry. Lately, that’s a lot. My body has definitely gotten the breakfast, lunch, dinner schedule down. It’s grumbling if I’m ever too late for a meal. My own reminder. :)

January 19, 2011

so sick of it.

I need a change. I don’t know what yet, but a little voice inside me is crying for something new. New hair color? New scenery? New people? I’m not sure.

Maybe I just need something so that I don’t stir crazy in this cold, crazy weather. I tend to get antsy if I’m in the same situation for too long, and for the past 5 months, it has basically been wake up, go to work, come home, sleep. Every day. Definitely, there needs to be a change.

I am going to Kansas City tomorrow for an appointment, and then maybe some sight-seeing. If i don’t freeze my fingers off, I’ll find something worth photographing. We’ll see how that goes.

Happy Wednesday!

January 11, 2011

winter wonderland.

Snow, snow. It’s always pretty at first, then it just becomes a pain. Cold and wet and yucky and not white anymore, but nasty brown. Today was the first big snow (almost 10″), and the pretty still is hanging around though. Tomorrow might be a different story.

And while everyone else is out sledding and having fun, I’ll be in my office getting things ready for the auditor next week. Talk about a drag. I’d rather be curled up with my Kindle and a cup of cocoa.


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December 2, 2010

I meant to get pictures of my new office, but dang it, it has been so busy at work! Month-end reports, audits, corrective actions, plus a million other things. I’ll get some next week hopefully.

My new Kindle is on its way. I’m so excited! Now, let me assure you, I love paperback books. I love that I can dog-ear pages that I want to come back to. I love feeling accomplished when I can see my bookmark getting closer and closer to the back. Paperback books are so cumbersome though. I don’t have the energy to lug one around all the places that I want to go. And I am prone to papercuts ALL the time. It’s a gift to get a papercut in the oddest (and most sensitive) places on my hands. I hate that. I told my mom to NOT get me a Kindle because I was buying one myself. She laughed and said she was surprised it took me this long. :)

No other news. This week has been seriously exhausting.

Chiefs game on Sunday!! (Oooh yes, get ready Denver!)

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October 29, 2010

breathe in, and hold it.

Sometimes things just don’t make much sense.

I have a great job with great people, great friends outside of work (seriously, they’re the best I could ever ask for), a semi-crazy but still supportive family. And a guy who cares about me (but let’s not get ahead of ourselves here–love is scary).

I am an extremely lucky person who should feel complete, right? For some reason, there feels like something is missing. I can’t put my finger on it, but that empty spot is there. It’s sort of lonely somewhere inside. I can feel that much.

Maybe I’ve been too busy to sort out everything that is going on. Frankly, life three months ago was completely different for me than it is right now. Let me just be honest–I was totally lost. I had half the confidence I feel now, half the drive, half the ambition. I was down on myself. When I got a job, it changed pretty quickly. I have changed and grown so much in such a short time that maybe I just don’t recognize what I thought this life would be. I love it, don’t get me wrong. It’s fun and fulfilling, and it makes me feel like I am accomplishing something, even if it isn’t what I planned for or dreamed of.

It’s all great, but I think I need to slow down for just a minute and figure out what I was looking for in the first place.

October 21, 2010

oh, sweeeeet.

My admirer (or whatever) brought me delicious cherry pie!

Now, if it had been someone other than a 45-year-old married man who creeps me out by standing too close when he talks to me, I would have been more excited.

October 8, 2010


They love me. Obviously.

October 1, 2010

fighting sleep.

It’s this kind of night. I’m too tired to go out, too lazy to get pretty, but still too awake to sleep as hard and long as I want to. Tea and writing. It’s just that kind of night.

The weekend is going to be relaxing. Sleep, sunshine, photo shoots, and football. Maybe an afternoon at Barnes & Noble. I need some quiet and a new Moleskine before next week starts. I’ll be on my own doing quality work. No more training. Mandy will be there, but she’ll be in the next office doing Brent’s job since he’ll be on vacation. I’m excited to prove I know what I’m doing.

September 27, 2010

and here we eat.

Lots of laughs are had in this cafeteria at work.

September 23, 2010

at work.

listening: Green River Ordinance & the constant swing of doors to production.
eating: trail mix.
drinking: water
wearing: khakis, long sleeved shirt, blue collared work shirt
feeling: exhausted
weather: no windows. no idea.

wanting: enough work to keep me busy all day!

needing: to print audit packages.
thinking: I’d really like to be snuggled in bed.
enjoying: that the cute maintenance guy is working today.
wondering: what plans are for this weekend.

September 7, 2010

week two starts here.

This hallway is cold, and I imagine it will get colder in the winter when that draft that comes down is freezing. My office is at the end in a small hallway on the right. Mandy and I have already cranked the space heater on and snuggled in with sweatshirts, and winter isn’t even here yet.

I wonder who settled on the blue paint anyway. When you see the outside of the plant (I’ll get a picture one of these days), you’d never imagine that you’d have blue hallways running through it. Maybe they needed something light since much of the production area is dreary and artificially lighted.

September 3, 2010

oh, innovia.

I like my job. It is a lot different than I imagined it would be, easier actually. A lot of computer work, communicating between our plant and Atlanta, paper work, double checking, customer complaints, corrective actions, sending samples to the lab, checking specs. Quality control is a busy job when the product can vary so much.

I think the hardest thing is that I don’t really understand what the other employees are talking about all the time. It’s like they are speaking code, and in a sense, they are. Casting, coating, parotesting, stretch lanes, etc. There are certain specs and calibrations and film types that I don’t know about yet (but am quickly learning), so I think it is only a matter of time before it becomes second nature for me too.

So if you open a SweetTarts or a Jolly Rancher, our plant could have made that wrapper. There are so many things that we make that I didn’t realize. It’s quite interesting to me.

The people are awesome. There are quite a few that I had met before when I would visit my sister or brother at work, or if we would happen to go out and have a drink. I haven’t met one person that doesn’t seem friendly and helpful. And we spend half of the day laughing at all the stories they tell me. Mandy is training me, and it’s like hanging out with one of my very best friends all day. We laugh and make fun of the guys and tease our boss, Dave. He is one of my favorites so far. He is from Britain and cracks me up, plus he brought us candy (after he ate all the good milk chocolate ones lol) and let us have his big office so I can “fit comfortably.” :)

It’s a good environment for me, and even though working a full week is tiring, I think the next few months are going to be good ones. Even if I am too busy to blog.

July 20, 2010

A miracle has happened. :)

I have a job.

No, seriously, I do! Well, it’s a temp job at Innovia Films while a girl, Mandy, is on maternity leave, but it’s still a job.

My oldest brother and sister both work there (yay for connections!), and I have met quite a few people that also work there over the past few years through the two of them. I’m going in a little bit comfortable already.

I won’t be starting until the end August so I can start training and then Mandy will go on her maternity leave at the end of October or sometime in November. Whenever the baby decides I suppose.

I’m excited to have something to do, even if it’s for a few weeks, but dreading the waking-up-at-the-crack-of-dawn-to-be-at-work-by-7:30 part.

March 15, 2009

making the best of this.

I smell like stale cigarette smoke, and it is disgusting.

I had fun last night, seeing old friends, laughing, having a beer. But mostly I was bored. Going out and being stupid just is not appealing to me anymore. The more that I stay home on the weekends, or hangout and do something fun and relaxing rather than going to the bar, spending ridiculous amounts of money, the more that I like being a sober, responsible kind of person. Not only have I saved a load of money, I just feel better about where I am and where I am headed.

Oh, I think this means I am growing up.

Guess what I am doing during Spring Break? Working. Yep, that’s right. Working. While everyone else is liquored up on Tuesday at the bars celebrating St. Patty’s Day, I am going to be tucked up in my office working on customer surveys and annual report content and planning out skits to promote youth summer reading programs. And I am completely okay with that. Maybe I’ll miss a break, but I really don’t mind doing something worthwhile all week instead of being on a weeklong drunk like most of my college friends will be.

Since I started working, it has changed the way that I look at partying I guess. Diana also said something to me that was a turnaround point also. She said “I always look at internships and volunteer experience before I even look at job experience. It shows me that this person is dedicated to something other than themselves.” It seems so right. I want to make sure that it’s apparent that I want to be there, to be the first person they want to hire full-time when a position opens up, and if I have to spend my break working to prove that, then so be it. Plus the annual report stuff really needs to be finished and be ready for placement when the audit is done. I want Gina, the executive director, to know I was on the ball on it.

The countdown is officially on–if you haven’t noticed–to graduation, and the closer it gets, the more important it is to make a good impression on everyone I meet who could be a good networking contact. I’ve made so many in the past few months, and I’m counting on utilizing those when I am looking for a job, in case a position doesn’t open up in time at TSCPL. Before I was just going one day, one thing at a time, but now I am planning further ahead and looking forward to what comes in the long run.

Growing up might not be so bad after all.